Someone You Used to Know

Someone You Used to Know
(Copyright 2008)
p/s: Thanks Zee Avi for singing out my heart...

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
That it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
Our love is lost, and we cant figure why
Maybe it really is about time
That we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
I hope that when you find someone new
That she would always be true to you
To love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
Then slowly you'd forget about me
Then I would slowly be
A distant memory

*Soon I'll just be
That someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
For letting you go
Time is not for wasting
I hope you'll find your intended
But I'm sorry
That your intended isn't me

It's not an easy thing
To shake off our history
Iknow that's what you want from me
But they will always stay with me

I admit I made mistakes
But darling with you it's just the same
If we stay there will be more to make
I dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
To stay with something no longer there
Its not that I no longer care
I'd feel like a burden you cannot bear

You may distant yourself, but please may I ask that you don't hate me...Trust me when I say I know I was pulling you down, and I am truly apologetic for the cut so deep! It's not easy, but sometimes the best thing one can do is to let go...

Suck it up??

Lots had happened over the course of the last few months. Along with the many happenings, many different feelings were encountered as well. Sometimes, I wish to be able to have control over my own feelings so that I can choose to feel or not feel a certain way or another. I reckon this is one of the many ways I defend my pain by playing avoidance. I know it hurts to be forced to be placed in situations that are not desirable, therefore my gut feeling would always invite me to run away. Anyway, running away I have been...I don't know if it had done me any good or made things worse. Anyway, as I have been feeling like a bitch lately, let me leave you with a prominent picture in my head...

You are standing outside braving yourself through the storm and wild winds, while I sit effortlessly in a cosy home with a lit up fireplace with lots of warmth and love.

Guilt is an understatement, I don't really know how exactly to describe my feelings, I don't think I will even know how to, neither would I be able to keep running away. I do feel vulnerable, I feel fragile, I don't feel good. I guess to every action there is consequences.

Suck it all up, and move it all on...