This Day A Year Ago...

This day a year ago was truly a heart wrenching moment for me. I left my what seemed to be blissful life, for an exchange of a student life in a far away place. I remembered how I cried like a child when I was at the airport leaving a special someone behind. When he texted me to tell me how the room wouldn't be the same without me for the next 2 years and how shopping will be depressing all by himself, nothing but a lump formed in my throat. I held back tears as those were words from that special someone for me as I decided to relocate home for 2 years for studies sake. Many would have thought that this story would end in a failytale fashion as I would graduate and move back with him and life would then resume as per normal.

Unfortunately the story only lasted another chapter. A chapter filled with hurt and turbulence. That story did not survive the test of time. Today, marks the anniversary of that transition I made. He was nothing but someone I truly respect as a kind, giving, compassionate, driven and strong-willed person. Clearly I could have been out of my mind to have derived at such a decision. It was not an easy battle, in the end of it, I raised the white flag, I surrendered, I gave up, I lost, I defeated. For all the trouble I caused, believe me when I say I tried. I tried and I tried to fight the battle, but in the end, it became too tough, a battle I know I will not win. Thus, surrender myself as a typical loser, I gave in and gave up! I failed because I decided to quit trying! My confession is that I wanted an easy way out and I was not gained to put in more effort. I failed and I lost...terribly!

An incredibly outstanding person you are. I know that you will go far. I would love to continue to see you grow as a person. You will find your deserving other half soon. When that day comes, please cherish her with all your heart, remind her how much you adore her, love like you've never loved before.

Think only of the past as if its rememberance gives you pleasure! Not a single day passes without me drifting away thinking about how you're doing or how life could have been. Occasionally a tear or two well up my eyes. It had been a good journey, it is unfortunate that it ended this way. Thank you, please take care and good riddance!

2010 --> May it be a fresh beginning to everything! In everything I do, I promise to keep my dreams at heart. For the only fight that would lead me to success is a good fight for my dreams! The only way to keep my dreams alive is to have them close to my heart! In everything I do, I will connect my my dreams to my heart and fight hard for it! I've lost the battle one, I never want to be a loser ever again! =)