I am incongruent, therefore I have conflicting feelings. My current state of mind is nothing less than a big mess. I want to feel disconnected from everything yet I can't because I am stuck. I feel like a knot being tied so tightly that it cannot be released and have no movements. I'm so frustrated by my current state that I feel like I need to breakfree!
This feeling of being stuck is not pleasant. There is no congruence between my current self and my ideal self. These two selves don't match and that is why I'm conflicting and in pain. I am not who I am anymore. I don't know if I will ever come to a realization to know what I'm doing and to awake from my slumber.
No use confiding in anyone. I must learn to suck up my own problems. I don't want to rely on anyone, not that I don't think they could be of help but more a process of maturity on my part. To know that I have my problems under control, under my own belt. Although this feeling is overwhelming and suffocating. I'd rather the burden be purely on myself.
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